Pins and Needles!!!

 4 more days!!!  I'm nervous and excited!  Liquid diet has gone much better since I switched to a different protein powder.  Yesterday was the first day I actually felt a little hungry.  But it's been manageable.  My pre-op weigh-in was at 353 pounds.  So far, I am down 17 pounds!  I'm hoping to be down 20 by the time of surgery.  Almost there!!!  

Another DSer posted this picture in a forum to be able to describe the DS.  I've been looking at anatomical pictures online trying to picture exactly what they are going to do during the revision.  But when I saw this, it made soooo much more sense.  Just had to share it here. 

There are so many things I am trying not to get my hopes up for.  When I was sleeved 5 years ago, I dreamed and dreamed big.  Only to feel like I let myself down in the end.  I am trying to rein it in and be realistic.  I would love to just be under 200 pounds.  That is probably more realistic than my dream goal of 140.  But I don't think it's too terribly unrealistic with the DS if I truly am committed to the process and the sacrifices I know I need to make for it to happen.  Carbs are going to be another causality of this war.  Thanks to the 2 week liquid diet and keeping my carbs under 50g's, I'm not feeling the demon so much anymore.  I'm craving veggies and meat which is fantastic!  I'd kill for a steak with a big salad on the side right about now.  

I wonder where I will be one year from now.  What will be my rate of loss?  I believe with the sleeve, I averaged about 10 pounds lost a month for the first year.  If that's the case, I should be around 215 by my 1 year mark.  Lower than the lowest I fought to get to with the sleeve.  My lowest weight ever was 236.  Wouldn't that just be amazing...  Maybe even hitting ONEDERLAND by Christmas!!!  OMG!  

But here I go getting my hopes up again.  Realistically, I should expect 1/2 the rate since I've already been sleeved and the massive restriction full DSer's receive is what jump starts that enormous weight loss like it did for me when I was first sleeved.  So I will take what help I can get from the surgery and do what I can to make up the difference.  This would be my food choices to fuel my body and exercising to burn the calories I'm taking in and then some so I can consistently lose weight.  

I can do this...  This is the most hopeful I have felt in years.  It's an awesome feeling to have hope again.