Bipolar dieter? Probably...

I never understood how I can be so on one minute and so off the next.  Why is it so hard to stay motivated and keep with this? 

We are back at it again.  This time it's the "17 Day Diet" by Dr. Mike Moreno.  It's a practical approach to healthy eating, not just dieting.  We are on day 7 and I've had a much easier time sticking with this than with traditional diets. 

I am so burnt out on dieting.  I just want to be able to eat the right things, exercise, and be healthy.  I don't want to be tempted to eating the wrong things all the time and when I do have something I'm not supposed to have, I want to be able to control myself. 

This morning was a struggle.  The scale has been fluctuating the last 2 days and when the scale wants to go up, I want to give up.  But I had to remind myself that there is a reason for this.  My body is rebelling like it always does.  This was expected and there is not reason to give into it.  I'm thinking I might need to go to weighing every other day instead of every day.  Although, I know that when I do not weigh, I'm doing bad.  I need to make sure that if I don't weigh, that does not equate to me having an off eating day. 

I have a reason for my madness right now.  My sister...  finally...  is getting married!  She's asked me to be her matron of honor.  This means bridesmaid dress shopping...

Of course this is nothing close to what she wants...  But most bridesmaid dresses are totally strapless and plus sized women just do not look good in strapless dresses!!!  Dresses are also getting shorter too.  I'm not a big fan of my legs...  So I thought something long would better suit my body style.  I've been in a wedding before where I had a different dress than the other people and it made me feel more self conscious than just being overweight...

So I think I found a happy medium.  This one has thick straps and it's tea-length...  BUT the model is skinny!!!  How would I look in this dress???  Right now, I'm fairly sure I'd look like sh!t...  LOL!  But I've got until April 14th of next year to get in control of things. 

I am so scared of looking bad in this dress (or any dress!).  I know what works.  I just need to do it!  We are talking about getting back into the gym.  I was losing inches like crazy when I was taking spin classes regularly, but I didn't lose much weight. 

I've got to figure this out.  I'm so done with the dieting games...  I can do this!