Musings and Headgames!

So from this time last week, I am up 5 lbs.  Gives me a headache just thinking about what I did and what I could have done better.  I know my problem...  carbs.  That's always been my problem.  And of course I'm in denial about eating them.  If I don't log them, then they weren't consumed.  Mwhahahaha  (my attempt at an evil laugh). 

So today...  It's back to basics.  Greek yogurt, water, cheese, water, roast beef, water, protein, water, protein, water, protein...  Toss in about 40 vitamins and some more water and I think I'll call it a day.  =)

Yesterday made 5 months since I was Switched.  72 lbs down is a good achievement, but of course I'd rather it have been 172...  What is this need for instant gratification?!?!?  Geez!  I didn't gain it overnight...  But when I've still got to lose another 140ish lbs...  I'm going to stop that thought.  Why is 72 lbs in 5 months not good enough?  Cheese and Crackers, people!  I lost the equivalent of my 9 year old plus the dog! 

My 32nd B-day is in 2 days and I'm wishing I'd get out of the 280's.  Last week I was so close making it to 281.  And then mother nature took over and made me retain everything under the sun and I floated back up to 286 this morning.  March is always the hardest month for me when I'm trying to lose weight.  My youngest daughter's b-day is the week before mine and through lots of celebration of her 8th birthday, I managed to eat 3 cupcakes...  So much better than my baker's dozen...  But 3 cupcakes is not going to get me to my goal.   Birthday or not...  I need to quit making excuses and exceptions and keep my eye on the prize!  I want this weight off my body a hell of a lot more than I want sugary, sweet, gooey icing and moist, melt-in-your-mouth cake...  Damn...  my mouth is watering now.  =(

So I'm going to remember where I came from and remind myself I'm never going back.  I've gotten too close to being there again and I'm on the right track and I want to stay there.  I see where I'm falling short and I will act to correct it now.  I will not give into the carbs and I will make my body move more.  I will stop stressing on what number I see on the scale and start focusing on the changes in the size of my clothes and the differences I see when I look at my before and current pics. 

I swear I'm not trying to be a photo whore, but I can't see it otherwise.  LOL!

 PS...  I need a scale like this.  And possibly those socks.  =)