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Friday, July 25, 2014

Moving on to Phase 2!!!

Its that time in the journey to move to the second phase and start removing some of this skin!  Weighing in at 219 lbs (total of 206 lb loss from my highest known weight), I wasn't sure if I was jumping the gun.  I figured a visit to the plastic surgeon's office would give me a better understanding.  After meeting with him, he feels that I am an excellent candidate for a circumferential abdominoplasty and he will also be doing a mastopexy to remove excess skin from my ribcage and breasts.

I'm already scheduled for August 25th!!!  Just over 4 weeks till surgery day!  I am definitely freaking out!  Every morning when I get ready for work, I look in the mirror and take inventory of what won't be there anymore.  I can't begin to tell you how life changing this will be! 

As far as my weight goals go, I still have a ways to go.  I know I'm not going to wake up and be at goal weight or look like a model.  I'm very realistic about my expectations.  I need my body to be functional.  With all this extra skin on my midsection, I am no where near as functional as I need or want to be! 

I won't lie...  This next step scares the mess out of me.  But I can't stress how necessary it is in order to keep moving forward in this journey.  I have such amazing people in my life supporting me.  After all is said and done, it will be totally worth it!

Surgical clearance is scheduled for 7/28 and my pre-op appointment is 7/31.  Next week will be a busy one for sure!!!

31 more days!!!!!

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Non-Scale Victory of a LIFETIME!!!


For the girls birthdays, we got them tickets to the New Orleans Wizard World Comic Con. On Saturday, we spent the better part of our 10 hour adventure on our feet - walking and seeing everything there was to see at this amazing event! I was amazed by my FitBit's readout at the end of the night. Almost 17,000 steps and nearly 7 miles walked. I think about where I was 7 years ago when I started this journey... I even reread My Story and remembered how badly my back hurt just to stand at the sink to wash dishes. An outing like this was something that only existed in my wildest dreams. I never want MY weight to stand in the way of someone else's dreams and for a long time, my inability to do things like this has kept my girls isolated. That's so not fair to them. The memories they created on this trip will be ones that will last a lifetime... They got to meet Glen (Steven Yeun) from The Walking Dead and get a picture with him. They got to see Stan Lee and Dean Cain and Linda Hamilton and Zach Galligan! We sat in the audience for a taping of an episode of SyFy's The Heroes of Cosplay! Those are so few of the many awesome things we saw and did!!!

There is absolutely no way I could have done this 200 lbs ago. No way.... So this was something completely foreign to me. I've been big for so long, I tend to avoid social situations and crowds like the plague. I think I mentioned before that I deal with an insane amount of anxiety. But despite being sick (2 weeks now with a head cold and chest congestion), I did it. I didn’t allow my insecurities keep me from enjoying myself. I didn’t even think about how still being 100 lbs overweight would affect my joints or how much pain I might be in later. I didn’t once allow any of that to keep my girls from having the absolute best time possible.

We had a freaking blast! They are already planning to go again next year!!! Who knew living was gonna be so much fun!?!?!?

Sunday, February 2, 2014

New Year Off to a GOOD Start!

December was tough, but we made it through.  January took some transitioning and some adjustments, but again... we made it through.  My current weight is 227 which has been holding steady for quite some time now.  I started exercising a few weeks ago and with no changes to my diet, I fluctuated up 6 lbs.  Then I got sick and quit exercising and I'm back down to 227.  Weird how that works.  As soon as I can get rid of this upper respiratory junk, I'll resume walking and hopefully preparing for my first 5k.  I committed to a 1/2 marathon for February 2015.  So I have a goal to work toward.

Trying to help hubby get back on track, I made some infused waters to help detox.  I can say the fat flush water with grapefruit, orange, mint, cucumber and green tea tastes like ass.  But there's another one that I found that isn't bad.  this one calls for:

Gallon Jug
4 tbsp lemon juice
4 tbsp diet cranberry juice
2 bags of dandelion tea (brewed)

Mix together in gallon jug and fill with water and refrigerate for 2 hours before drinking.  This is not meant to be a meal replacement. 

I will drink it out of a 24 oz cup.  2 cups of the detox water and I add another 1/2 cup or so of cranberry juice and fill the rest with ice.  Yesterday was my first day trying it out and I was peeing every hour and it definitely helped move things along with #2 as well.  Hubby didn't notice much of a difference, but he'd only had about 1/3 of what I'd had for the day since he was at work most of the day.  I figured I'll give it a week and see how things go.  I'm so close to my 200 lb lost mark.  I'd like to be there SOON!!!  2 more lbs to go!  And only 28 lbs to ONEderland!!!

Our road to healthy has taken a turn for the better.  Our little ones (9 and 10 year old girls) have decided to jump on the wagon with us.  Our almost 9 year old struggles with her weight and has gained 10 lbs since August, despite being active and staying away from junk food.  We have always been very open about nutrition and always talk about how our bodies process food for fuel.  Apparently something sunk in with her and after weighing in at 92 lbs 3 weeks ago, she decided she needed to make a change.  She and I have been working on her food choices and incorporating regular activity and she is down 2.5 lbs.  Because she is still young and growing, I don't want her to focus on losing weight...  I just want her to focus on not gaining.  She will grow into the weight that she is.  But I know how much of a boost it is to her self-esteem to see that her efforts are putting out some positive results!!  So if she loses weight in the process, then we will take every little success we can.


I've got some big goals for the year.  First is to get back to school.  Still don't know what I want to be when I grow up, but I'll at least finish my Associates in Psychology.  Like I mentioned, I'm aiming for a 5k in a few months and a 1/2 marathon in about a year.  I'm hoping to make it to ONEderland by the end of the year.  I know losing this weight is not a race so I'm fine if it comes off slowly.  I will not sacrifice my health for a number on a scale. 

Well that's all I've got for now.  Hopefully I'll have my 200 lb lost update soon!!!  =)


Friday, November 8, 2013

Taking Things to a New Kind of Low...

I'm a few days shy of being 13 months out from my Duodenal Switch.  I have finally surpassed my lowest weight and lost ALL of the weight I'd regained.  My weight this morning...  234.  2 lbs less than where things took a screeching halt the last time.

So...  This is new territory for me.  Being this weight represents so many things to me right now and some of them are scary.  For the first time in 15+ years of being together, I weigh less than my husband.  From my heaviest weight, I have lost 191 lbs.  9 lbs away from 200 lbs lost...  I am 35 lbs away from ONEDERLAND!  I'm almost in need of a size 18 pants.  All of these things and MORE make me excited and anxious about going further.

All of my concerns are in my head.  Mostly doubts...  Can I do this?  Can I be successful?  So much of my life can be chocked off to unfinished projects and half realized dreams.  I don't want this journey to be that way.  I have a goal.  Maybe it's too lofty.  Maybe it's not.  But I'll never know if I don't give it everything I have and at least go for it!

This next year coming up is representing a big change for our family.  In just about any circumstance, change is scary.  It's tough not knowing what to expect.  The only thing we can do is plan for the worst and hope for the best.  With that said...  Stress is a huge trigger for me to eat.  I will be battling this and I know and understand that this will be a daily struggle for me.  But I will remember that I do not need to stress over things that are beyond my control.  We will make it through and be better for it in the end!!!

2014 is going to be a GREAT year!!!!!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

7 Months.... Not this time!

The last time I went through this whole weight loss journey, I got stuck in the 240's for 7 months!  I managed to break through and get into the 230's for about 2 seconds before climbing back up to the 350's.  Now...  here I am again in the 240's.  I've been here for 2 months already.  This morning's weight was 244.  I refuse to be stuck here for another 5 months.  But I can say that I know this won't be the case.  My weight loss might be slowing down, but I can say that it's not because I'm eating the wrong things this time.


Here is my latest photo comparison.  The first picture was taken Dec. 2006.  I remember this day so clearly.  This was the day that I thought I was having a heart attack when instead I was having a panic attack.  I went to urgent care and their scale said 425 lbs.  This was the moment that sparked the change.  I was 25 years old.  It makes me so sad for the girl I see in that picture.   7 years later at 245 in the second picture.  I still have such a long way to go, but I have come so far already.  I don't ever want to forget that girl...  but I know I don't ever want to be where she was ever again.

 Goals have been so important to me on this journey.  Not necessarily weight goals, but more accomplishments.  My most recent one I've been working on is to prepare for a 5k that we will be participating in this fall.  I'm up to 2 miles in 39 minutes before I feel like I'm going to keel over.  And that's pushing it.  So I'm trying not to push so hard and just keep at it.  I'll get there.  My goal is to finish the 5k in under an hour.  So if I can do that, then I'm good!  I can improve from there.  But that gives me something to work at.  

I'm debating on getting a personal trainer after the first of the year.  I'm not 100% on this yet.  The thought of it freaks me out.  But at the same time, I feel like I need someone telling me what to do so I can make the most of this body I have.  It will be tough not being able to see the results under the rolls and folds of skin, but at least I know it's under there and I'll see it one day when I have the extra bits removed.  And using a personal trainer will only help me get to that point faster.  So I'll be weighing the options.  It's in the budget... so we shall see!!!

Till next time!!!

Friday, August 23, 2013

Slap my hand!!!

I can't believe I haven't updated since MAY!!! 


The first pic is from my highest of 425 lbs.  The infamous black skirt that I wore at that weight...  and my most recent pic at 250 lbs - taken on 7.29.13

Currently, I'm at 248 lbs.  Just got results from my hematologist and my iron levels are in completely normal ranges!  I will be going to see my primary care doctor in a few months to have a full panel of blood work done again to check my other levels and see if my other deficiencies are improving.

I anticipated being a slow loser since I wasn't a virgin DSer, but I am really pleased with how well I've done so far.  I'm learning every day what is best for this body and the DS makes it easy to keep making those good choices.  Best of all, I'm learning to not turn to food when I'm stressed.  The foods I used to run to for comfort cause me so much pain and agony, I'd rather just find a more constructive way to de-stress.  So I've spent most of my weekends crafting.  Pinterest is my new best friend (cough cough...  transferred addiction)!  LMAO!

The only demon I haven't managed to conquer is the lazy one...  Well, maybe not lazy...  Just a lack of motivation to MOVE!  And when I do, I'm not consistent.  I choose not to make it a priority.  And when I try to, I make excuses to justify why I just don't do it....  Too busy, too tired, too preoccupied, too hot...  Helping a kid with homework, gotta clean house, gotta do laundry, gotta shop, gotta cook...  In the back of my mind, I KNOW that exercise is just as important as taking my vitamins every day.  So why CAN I commit myself to taking my vitamins but I CAN'T manage to get off my ass and bounce for 5 minutes or take a walk around the neighborhood.  *Stupid slap*

From 425 to 248...  I don't have my weight holding me back anymore.  My excuses are getting lame... even to me! 

As a means to quit making excuses, I'm committing myself to a 1/2 marathon!  In February of 2015...  But to get started, I've got to work my way up.  I don't do 1 mile let alone 13!!!  To force me to start training, as a family, we are planning to participate in our first family 5k in November.  Couch to 5k here I come!!  Do they make a bed to 5k?  Or a floor to 5k?  I'll get there...  but I have to start somewhere.  And the road to somewhere starts with the first step. 

=)






Friday, May 31, 2013

I am Iron Woman!





It's been a while since I've updated.  Everything has been going really well!  I'm learning so much about my new life after the Duodenal Switch.  I went at the end of April to do my 6 month labs and got my results back a few weeks later.  My heart goes out to the nurse that called me to discuss my results...  LOL!

I told her not to stress over what it said and to just send me the results.  Just what I always wanted to do...  Learn how to interpret a comprehensive lab report.  No, really...  Who knew learning about what does what or which ones work together to do what would be exciting and fun!!!  What a learning experience!

So...  I've got some deficiencies.  But thankfully, they are old deficiencies that are actually getting better since the DS.  The only real issue that needed to be addressed was my Iron levels.  I have IDA (Iron Deficient Anemia).  The best course of treatment for this is an iron infusion... get my Iron Woman pic now รด¿~

I'm scheduled for my first of 2 infusions next Thursday.  The second will be 1 week later and in 3 months, we'll do another set of labs and see how much improvement we have made.


I need to say that I am really proud of how far I've come. For the first time in forever, I feel in control of my life and my body. When I had the sleeve, I was young and naive and I thought I was invincible. I neglected to retain what I learned or to be proactive about maintaining my health. I thought just losing weight would solve all of my problems. But I have come to realize that this process is psychological, physical, and physiological... the trifecta of P's. I'm getting it this time. I'm learning and retaining. I'm being an active and productive participator in my own health instead of just expecting it to happen on its own. 

Being that I was never a vitamin taker before this surgery...  I had my doubts that I would be able to live up to such a huge commitment.  Even my own husband had his doubts!  I must admit that I have been scared straight.  I truly understand the implications of not taking care of myself.  I'm trying to play catch-up from years of neglecting myself and my body.  But knowing that I am making progress is such a big thing to me.  Looking at my spreadsheet with my lab results and seeing the good work I've done...  It's awesome.  I will not only be healthy physically, but at a cellular level as well.  Isn't that what we should be striving for?  Not just to lose weight and look good in a bikini (not that I'd ever be seen in public in a bikini) ...  but to truly be HEALTHY!

At 7 1/2 months out, my weight is at 260.  93 lbs down.  I'm only 24 lbs away from my all time lowest weight.  It's exciting and scary at the same time.  For the first time ever, I feel like reaching my "onederland" goal is finally attainable.  

Only time will tell.

Until next time...  =)